Hello,
I was searching the web, once again for help, and I found this site. My situation is long and very complex, but I will give the short version. I am mom to 4 little boys, whom reside in America with their Father's (I was married twice before)2 sons to each so called father. I live here now in Au with my husband whom is a aussie. I left America cuz I have bipolar disorder and lost my job, my home, everything. at the time I thought it was in my children's best interest, because I could no longer provide for them. It has been over 2 yrs now...with every passing day I feel worse, my bipolar is getting worse, as I was in hospital 3 weeks ago. The sad bit is no one will help me to establish contact with them. i call but get hung up on, the letters go unanswered. I feel worthless....I made up a website for my boys which tells more about us and our story. the site is: www.mommyluvsu.com I hope ppl will see it and maybe someone will help. i encourage you all to look at it and get as many ppl to see it. and if any one has any kinds words or suggestions, PLEASE help
Buffy

You are not alone Buffy! I think the Bi-polar is more common than we realise. I may not have been diagnosed but I certainly have my extreme ups and my extreme downs, within a matter of hours!! I know exactly how you feel. After I first gave my 4 (young)children to their father I remarried and moved overseas. I had regular bi-monthly contact and weekly phone contact, but so many times I would call and couldn't get through, because their father was just being a total a**hole!! It felt like the last rope that tied me to them, which I clung to desparately, had been lost. When my second marriage broke up (another unfaithful husband!! I can pick 'em!!) I moved back to Australia and got monthly contact. I think their father was grateful for the weekends off!! But now he is denying me even phone contact and is turning them against me, I have no address, I don't know what school their at, and have only a mobile number, which they often don't answer. The only thing I can do is tell myself I am ME first and mother 2nd. I have to look after ME first because I want to live, and I need to stay healthy and live long enough to enjoy my children when they are adults, if not now. They will come looking for you, I promise you. They will find a way! Until then, know that you are not alone! Give yourself a BIIIIIIIIIIIIGG HUG for me!!!!
Love
Felicity

Hi Felicity,
thanks for the encouragement, althoug i can imagnie as for you it is so hard at this time of the year........im really cycling fast but i think after christmas it will pass. im on medication and have mostly good days, still a few bad ones when all the memories come flooding back. i miss them sooooooo much.
(((HUGS)))
Buffy

Hi Buffy,

You are an AMAZING WOMAN!! & TRULY A DEVOTED MOTHER!! HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!

BIG HuG!
Felicity

i have read your site and children's pages
I can not show you any compassion.
YOU alone have abandoned your children.
Children from 3 fathers ??+
How long till the latest father/his family feels the same.
stop the sob story.
get in to the real life.
stop putting your emotional baggage onto children.
your site is insulting to any parent.
let alone the bpay logo,,,,,,,,,
you want to love and care for your numerous children, DO IT YOURSELF. BE THERE. stop winging
you make me sick.
single mother of 2
from 6mths old, now 18 yrs
jennifer

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Hello,
I was searching the web, once again for help, and I found this site. My situation is long and very complex, but I will give the short version. I am mom to 4 little boys, whom reside in America with their Father's (I was married twice before)2 sons to each so called father. I live here now in Au with my husband whom is a aussie. I left America cuz I have bipolar disorder and lost my job, my home, everything. at the time I thought it was in my children's best interest, because I could no longer provide for them. It has been over 2 yrs now...with every passing day I feel worse, my bipolar is getting worse, as I was in hospital 3 weeks ago. The sad bit is no one will help me to establish contact with them. i call but get hung up on, the letters go unanswered. I feel worthless....I made up a website for my boys which tells more about us and our story. the site is: www.mommyluvsu.com I hope ppl will see it and maybe someone will help. i encourage you all to look at it and get as many ppl to see it. and if any one has any kinds words or suggestions, PLEASE help
Buffy

Jennifer, what can I say?! You wreak of ignorance.
I pray that your children's father never turns against you! It's easy to be a single mum when there is no interference from the other party and/or you get along with them. But not everyone is like you! Thank God! Because I'd hate the world to be filled with compassionless ignoramus'!!!

jennifer attacks again. Whats the matter dear? no one to fight with at home? you are a coward. oh, could the reason you feel such a happy single mother be because you can't tell which ones the father when you've done 5 footie teams so of course no custody issues?!?!?!

The worse thing in the world is losing a child to:

1.. death
2.. Scumbag men (Not meant to be a tar brush)

She obviously doesnt suffer the latter, and i genuinely wish that IT never suffers the 1st one either.

Could Antagonistic Moron be Jennifers personaility trait?

How dare you?

Jennifer,
I hope and pray that all mother's here read your reply to me................
I refuse to give you the glory in all of this, and I hope that GOD is as kind to you, as you have been to me
may you be blessed.
Cheers,
Buffy
PS I was married to my sons father's and just for the record my current husband also has Bipolar. I suggest you go to my new site and see I took out all the wrong words and filled them with LOVE, something I hope you are able of experiencing one day, but as long as your bitter you cant let love fill your heart.
www.mommyluvsu.net
and don't be afraid to show your contact email. I will pray for you and you hardened heart because even GOD loves you!!!

Hi Buffy
Like most of us here I know that a little empathy & understanding can go a long way. We hear you! For me personally it has taken 3 yrs to finally realize & accept that this whole custody situation is just a huge game of patience. You know what they say about patience..? It is a virtue...well I plan to be a very virtuious old lady one day...(yes it will take a lifetime!) Patience, patience, patience!
And as for all the control freaks out there who love to manipulate & get off hurting others (esp the mother of their children) someone needs to let them know that they cant/wont control the fact that our kids will all grow up! They will also make their own choices for themselves too when they do...
So be patient. Be strong. And most of all be kind to yourself too!
"Mummyhugs" to you from Amanda.
PS "Mummyhugs" are the best!! You know the ones that help to mend broken hearts & dry tears...the ones that only us mummies have!

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Replying to:

Hello,
I was searching the web, once again for help, and I found this site. My situation is long and very complex, but I will give the short version. I am mom to 4 little boys, whom reside in America with their Father's (I was married twice before)2 sons to each so called father. I live here now in Au with my husband whom is a aussie. I left America cuz I have bipolar disorder and lost my job, my home, everything. at the time I thought it was in my children's best interest, because I could no longer provide for them. It has been over 2 yrs now...with every passing day I feel worse, my bipolar is getting worse, as I was in hospital 3 weeks ago. The sad bit is no one will help me to establish contact with them. i call but get hung up on, the letters go unanswered. I feel worthless....I made up a website for my boys which tells more about us and our story. the site is: www.mommyluvsu.com I hope ppl will see it and maybe someone will help. i encourage you all to look at it and get as many ppl to see it. and if any one has any kinds words or suggestions, PLEASE help
Buffy